The Moto Quest - Wildflower

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From the moment I decided to share my journey with you, I set the intention to do it honestly and authentically. I did not think it would be so hard. Maybe I was naïve into thinking it would be more about the struggle to find the next place to rest my head over all that is coming up now… the internal quest within myself.


I find myself experiencing completely new aspects of myself while planning such a massive adventure because you get thrown in so many foreign situations. And, oh dear, this is “just” the preparation phase; I am not even out there on the road yet. I can tell you though my quest has already started. I’m discovering a variety of my own insecurities and fears at the moment. Things many of us may deal with on a regular basis and pay little attention to are surfacing. Matters that may not even be worth writing about… they are! I think it’s these small and unattended fears, which compress our character and stop us from living up to our full potential. So here I am, exposing myself and sharing each little step of my adventure with you… the inner and out one.



Over one year ago I deactivated my Facebook. I have been living far away from home for the past five years and Facebook was a comfortable and easy way to stay in touch with my friends in the distance. I came to realise, that I filtered what I shared and created an image about my overseas life that muffled the truth and wasn’t the true reality within. Gorgeous photos of my environment or simply of the coffee cup in the sunshine, do not illustrate the thoughts in your mind and feelings in your heart that you are dealing with. While sipping on this coffee, much stayed hidden by choice, but as result I have created a social-media-me, which, although real, wasn’t the whole truth. I wonder if that’s exactly what we do with our lives; create half-truths and images about ourselves for others. In the western world we feel forced to only share our golden side, in order to be loved and accepted, to fit in and to sell ourselves successfully in our jobs and businesses, to the opposite sex and in social situations.



I had many meetings in the last few weeks to discuss photo sessions, filming for TMQ, was invited to drag race and to have a group of gorgeous women ride with me for a few days. Others keep swamping me with ideas for The Moto Quest, which I highly appreciate, but it seems many of them are geared towards the “sexy and cool” image of a girl on a motorbike. Some of the concepts I really love, but experienced sudden anxiety about them. There are some tempting offers that would create great exposure and marketing, but I had to step back and listen to who I really am. I am not that girl riding a motorbike in a bikini being all spicy in hopes that the photo will go viral over the web. My English isn’t perfect, my body isn’t and my life isn’t perfect either.



“C’mon Miss motorcycle, show us!!” Yesterday I found myself in a situation where I felt intimidated by the expectation of others. The feeling of not being as good, hot, cool or what so ever – maybe the feeling of others witnessing me fail. I was tempted to prove myself, but was then even prouder, that I stepped back. Everything I do on this journey, I want to do for the right reason and that’s surely not to receive applause or prove anything to anyone but to myself.


I have received a wonderful email from a stranger last night, who addressed me as “wildflower” and wow, what a wonderful synonym it was for how I felt.

It is not only a beautiful picture for a free spirit uncultivated by the mainstream that grows freely without social interference and the world’s conformity; it also represents the beauty of humbleness perfectly. Let wildlife be your master and medicine! We can always look up to nature to understand about life itself.


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